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hmmm..
WOAH..
its been a really long time since i've blogged..
haha..
suddenly..
my levi's madness returns..
haha..
i bought a levi's jeans..
and its length is 33..
haha.. i'm like..
wad?! haha..
even the guy's jeans is 32..
and their leg is supposed to be longer than ours..
and so..
it means we (including tiff) gotta get it altered..
haha..
bo bian..
we leg short..
haha..
anyway..
its really nice..
and i love it!!
haha..
but i dun love it when i see the hole in my pocket..
haha..
these few weeks gotta eat air liao lor..
lol..

hmmm..
i feel quite saded today..
why?
coz i feel like i have just lost a friend..
one whom i can talk to about almost anything under the sun..
but now..
we dun even talk..
he most probably wont even wanna see me again...
haiz..
and.. i really miss those night activities..
but..
i guess..
there will no longer be anymore of it..
hmmm..
does trying to give up means giving me up as a friend as well..
yes..
i know..
tiff have been telling me that its just for the time being..
but.. i just feel the lost..
its a feeling..
and i cant control how i feel..
somehow..
i feel i am no longer part of the group..
only tiff is in..
and i am just tagging along..
now..
when i ask.. night activity?
there will be silence..
i am not exactly stupid..
so i know wad it meant..
but look..
if tiff were to say the same thing..
there will definitely be a different reaction..
haiz..
i feel so insignificant..
and..
haiz..
i just dunno how to describe my feelings..
the only word i can think of is..
BAD..
plus!
GUILTY..
why?
coz i feel that its all my fault..
that i've caused u to be miserable..
that i've hurt u or anything..
a small part of my brain will just keep telling me..
"its all ur fault..",
"look! everyone hates u! coz u are a bad person who hurt their friend!"

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i guess i really think alot when i've got nothing to do..
it feels good to know that at least i have u two by my side..
someone i can rely on..
my pillar of support..
especially when times is difficult like this..
when something bad is happening..
and when i am trying hard to blend into school again..
haiz..
u two should know who u are.. (in case u dun.. u're t & j)
i love u guys.
irreplaceable place in my heart..