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haha.. its 4.30 am!
i seriously dunno wanna go to sleep ma..
coz i scared tmr cannot wake up for school leh..
sian sia..

hmmm..
just finish watching xiao niang er..
got no one to talk to..
so can only talk to com..
i wonder when he will come visit this blog..
hmmm..
maybe even after i stop blogging le he also wont..
or maybe..
he even forgot that i blog..
haha..
anyway..
i watched xiao niang er coz..
it just reminds me of my grandma..
with all the "ma ma" all..
hmmm..
but the show also reminds me that i have already lost someone dearest..
i dreamt about the house in malaysia a few nights ago..
does it mean anything?
hmmmmmmm..
i only know i miss her so much after i finish watching the show..
and..
i feel like hugging her like how i always used to....

hmmm..
anyway.. diverting the topic..
there was once..
i was talking to my poly friends..
and one of them..
"huh, i think if the guys treat u good sure is coz like u den got motive that's why"
hmm..
the others agreed..
but me the stubborn one..
just blurt out without thinking..
"huh! no lor! my friends they not like that de.. even if they dun like you, they also will treat you very good one lor. coz we are friends."
i said it with such pride and confidence..
but..
now..
thinking back..
maybe it was just my own wishful thinking afterall..
haha..
i felt so foolish at myself..
after i got together with yang.
there is not a single night outing anymore..
or to say..
i hardly meet up with them anymore..
they will just say "aiya, she is meeting yang la"
but its assume..
they dun even bother to call..
but if say me and him already say hao going out le..
den friends come and ask, of course say cannot la..
even if is they themselves if meeting other friends le..
den got pple ask them out..
they also will say cannot de wad..
first come first serve..
and if we planned nothing and u all ask us out..
of course can..
anyway..
i just feel so sad when i think back what i say..
and the situation now..
i feel so pathetic..
i feel they hardly even want to talk to me anymore..
haiz..
i THOUGHT i am their friend too..
but now it looks like..
i am a stranger introduced to them as yang de gf..
haiz..
maybe wad my poly friends say are true..
i guess..
coz...
dunnnoo...
dun care...
my grandma is still the best..
po po.... i miss u..