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if you are unhappy with me..
why dun you tell me straight...
and ask me about it.
i believe tiff already knows about this..
so i might as well say it out...
the bdae celebration was cancelled coz yang couldnt make it...
why is it so?
its coz i find that.. i might as well spend the day out with tiff..
rather than the last two hours of her bdae..
did anyone know how difficult it is..
i started to plan..
one month before..
when it is cancelled..
i dun understand why anyone would be more du lan than me..
different pple think differently..
i think that i might as well spend the day with her..
and you think that we could push the thing forward...
it just didnt occur to me that i could push the thing forward..
because..
long before yang told me he could not make it..
i already feel like cancelling the thing le..
dun believe can go ask ym..
i've asked him b4..
whether i should carry on with the plan or not..
do you know how it feels..
when u tell pple about the plan..
and their reaction is..
huh.. i think tiff will surely say she expected it..
you'll definitely feel discouraged by it..
even though she say well.. you could still go ahead with it..
the feeling is already there in ur mind..
or when nobody replies you when u ask them to confirm whether they are coming..
or when..
you dunno how many pple are going to come..
and you dunno how much food to buy..
and when..
you worry that.
they might not eat the food that u buy
and its all going into the bin..
and when u tell another person about it..
he say no comments..
and u'll feel that ur plan sucks..
and nobody is enthusiastic about it..
after yang told me he cannot make it..
i told him about the plan..
and he also feels that i should cancelled it..
thus..
it really makes me feel like the plan sucks and i should cancel it..
haiz..
so i cancelled it with only ym the one supporting it..
but when i said i cancel it..
nobody said anything to me..
or even ask for details....
haiz..

if u are unhappy with me..
and wish to complain to someone..
please dun whisper infront of me..
how would u feel if i were to keep on whisper to tiff or alvin..
infront of u..
and give u side glances..
and we walk away when u are near..
i dunno about u..
but i just dun like it..
u wanna say wad..
u go ahead..
just dun do it infront of me..
but if doing this will make u happy..
well..
den i've got nth to say..
you can go ahead and do it..

about the celebration thing..
after i've said it this time..
i wont ever wanna remember this incident again..
i'll throw the memory out of my brain..

if u feel that..
u are picking up my shit to finish..
and it troubled u..
den i'm sorry for it...
if me admitting that i am the one in the wrong..
and it makes u happy..
den fine..
i am a person who dun finish up wad i am suppose to do..
and leaves shit behind for pple to clear up..
this is who i am to you...
and now i know..

i dun think i know anyone anymore..
maybe i dun even know me anymore..
but i am really sad..
now..
if anyone ask me..
who are ur close friends..
i dunno who to name..
they are right...
it takes two hands to clap..
if i treat them as a close friend and they dun..
den the we are not considered as close friends..
if they do not treat u as a close friend..
den wad is the point of insisting that we are close friends..