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i took some of my drugs today..
and..
i managed to talk to him abit..
talking to him again was great..
athough it seems that the vicious cycle is restarting itself..
but.. its all my fault..
sometimes i feel angry and ridiculed by myself..
why did i try to be angry at him and ignore him..
when i also enjoy talking to him..
when i treated him badly..
wad was my feeling at that point of time?
i question myself now..
and i realise the answer was..
i wasn't feeling anything..
coz i wont let myself think about how i feel..
i try not to feel..
i dun know wad i am worried about if i do think about it..
at that point of time..

maybe i am a very selfish person..
or greedy is the word..
but..
i am not sure..
i wont say things like if there is a next life..
but if in this life..
i were to lost my memory..
i hope he would be there to start anew with me..
so even if i had a past..
i wont even know my past..
but for the pple in my past..
hmmmm.. at least it happened once before to them..
anyway i wont remember and it would be a new life to me..
i dunno wad exactly i am talking about..
for pple who understand its good..
for pple who dun..
lol..
dun ask me to explain..
coz i dun really understand also..
haha..

but..
do you think this is a fairytale world?
lol.. this wont happen unless in tv serials..
and u cant have the best of both worlds...

so u pple can happily guess who it is..
but u all can never guess it right..
coz i wont tell u who it is!!
bleh!